At a Crossroads

Today we finally put away all our Christmas stuff!! HA!

Yeah, we have been a little slow on everything, slow putting them out, so of course, a little slow putting them away! Oh Well!

So. I had a 'new patient appointment' this week with an OB/GYN to discuss things.

I was able to speak with the RN and the Doctor, who I really liked, but the message was the same from both.

'We can run a couple tests, but you really should see a reproductive specialist.'

ARG.

I was hoping that out of this appt I would be able to just get a barrage of tests and figure something out!!!! Can't it be that easy?

Um. No.

They drew blood for 2 tests, both which came back within normal range (prolactin and thyroid) which, yeah is good to hear... but at the same time, this gives no answers to what is happening!

And in the back of my head I'm thinking.. Maybe I'm searching for answers that aren't there...

I was given a couple names of reproductive endocrinologists in the area (since we are definitely not going back to our previous doc)

However, I am at a crossroads in my heart..

Do we Proceed with tests, shots, meds, waiting, fear and dealing with emotions from past experiences?? Not to mention all the costs!

I can try the myofascial release again, which I am totally good with, but we need to see if there is something causing the miscarriages first..

I just couldn't bear to go through that again, especially without trying to find out if it's somehow preventable.

Or, do we try a different road altogether? Do we start seriously looking into adoption?
I am starting to research because there is SO much information to go through on adoption and I want to know all our options.

So many question marks!!

I (we) want to do the right thing for our family - and not because I am afraid or unsure to do something else, because I understand it's not always easy, it's just nice to be a little prepared ya know!?

All I can do is pray and pray that the right paths will be revealed to us.
(and Soon! I am feeling impatient today!!)

Shannon :)