Moving Right Along..

Here is the part where it gets tricky for me. I want to share everything but at the same time- don't want to go through the same thing we did last time.

So, with that said, I will carefully be choosing my words and probably not sharing the official results within the next 2-3 weeks... Just want to make sure things are progressing first!!

I start with the "booty shots" as I call them, tonight. Have to have injection of progesterone every day to support attachment (of fertilized egg) and then to support the pregnancy... god willing..

BUT~ no pun intended.. hee hee.. had to have the "HCG" (Human chorionic gonadotropin) shot yesterday morning to encourage the mature follicles to spit out the eggs, hence ovulation.

I REALLY dislike getting a shot in the booty.. not to mention having one EVERY DAY!!
It is so uncomfortable to sit, walk, sleep, pretty much anything that requires movement of the lower body or pressure on that spot.
It feels like a bad bruise, but there is nothing there but a happy face the nurse drew on there to mark the injection spot. (how clever of her, huh!)

My home nurse.. aka, Jesse, did a great job as always though. What a trooper! Maybe he missed his calling as a phlebotomist!?

Today I started running a low grade fever and have a bad headache.. pretty sure that is as a result of the hormones. Plus an achy bum would make anyone a little grumpy, eh?

Such is life, right? No pain, no gain.

So, my challenge is to be accepting of the pain... to try not to constantly complain...

And be grateful of the wonderful opportunity that God has allowed.. that He in fact has Blessed us with!

All Pumped Full of Drugs!

Hello all,
Things are going fairly smooth so far.. Have only had a couple difficult moments due to the hormones. I was quite emotional on day 3 - which was the first day I started taking the Clomid (stimulates ovulation) and the Estrace (estrogen) and then on day 6, Saturday, when I just had to stop, cry, and take a nap... the world was simply falling apart at that exact moment :P
.... but .... only 2 days of insaness, not bad.....it could be worse.

It's strange really ~ I'm not sure what is so different this time around. BUT I am NOT complaining!

Tomorrow will be the last day of "Gonal F" shots:
(human follicle stimulating hormone which is the hormone responsible for stimulating the production of egg-containing follicles)
Which I have to give myself in the stomach. :(
They aren't too bad now that I am used to it, but the first time I ever had to do it I was a nervous wreck. I am certainly getting used to needles, and my fear of them is much less now!

I go for an ultrasound Friday to check things out. We are hoping for mature follicles at this appointment!! Unfortunately Jesse won't be able to go with me - he has to work late, so I am going solo. So everyone think good thoughts and say some prayers and cross your fingers! :)

We really appreciate all the encouragement and support! Hope you all had a good Easter!

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New Beginnings

Wow! My first Blog on my own Blogger page.. who knew? I am starting this simply to journal our footsteps toward starting a family, to keep family and friends informed and to keep our precious life moments regardless whether they may be difficult or joyous.

As you may know, my husband Jesse and I were blessed in October with wonderful news. We were expecting our first child! It was a miracle in itself to have such success on our first try of fertility meds so we were shocked and amazed and overjoyed! A short 2 weeks after our news, the rug was ripped out beneath us just as quickly as it had all happened.

And thus, the grieving and repairing, mending and growing began as we learned to cope with such a tragic loss. I never knew such a deep grief could be possible for something, someone that I never even Really knew, but was at the same time so connected and one with, for even a short period of time. I was 7 wks along, and had only known for 2 wks, but it really seemed like a lifetime, which I suppose for one of us, it was...

So with the support and prayers of our family, friends and coworkers, we've made it to this point of accepting the blessing that God gave us and moving forward as we must.
The Lord blessed us with now knowing that pregnancy IS possible!

He blessed us with the gift of time, to be more prepared (if that is ever possible) to put some priorities in better perspective and to be able to grow in this experience - by supporting each other, and becoming better listeners and learning how to communicate better.
He has also brought us closer to HIM through prayer and His word, and through the encouragement of others.

SO - Here's where the new chapter begins....
Tomorrow I start back on the fertility meds....... so crazy emotional shannon is about to return.. YIKES!

I am totally relying on the Lord to help me stay sane.
I truly truly TRULY do NOT want to lose my mind.

So, with that said, we shall see.
Any prayers or encouraging words are MUCH appreciated! Hey, even if you have to tell me I am being a crazy person, I welcome it... I might cry, but I still will appreciate it being brought to my attention :)

I am also thinking in the back of my mind... am I really doing this again?
The pills, the shots, the emotions..... the nausea, the sleeplessness....
but, oh, the love of a tiny one..... my heart and soul just yearn for it so this is the reason...
a gift from God, a piece of Jesse's heart, and a piece of mine, woven into one.

Yeah, don't remind me of the other stuff like stinky poopy diapers and teenage fights, yadda yadda yadda... :) It's all in love right????